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Luckless Laura LoveBY: Romeo | Category: Relationships | Post Date: 2009-11-29
You want to talk about love at first sight? On the first day of high school, first period, I walked into history and sat down next to Matt Simons. He was the only kid in the entire school I knew. I looked diagonal from me and I saw the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. I was too scared to ask her name. The next day, first period, my heart jumped into my throat when I walked in and saw her again in my first period…this time bio. I walked in and started looking at the names on the desk. I drew closer and closer to the smiling beauty… could it be? I almost fainted from fear. This gorgeous girl was sitting right behind me! She was very friendly, soon I found out her name was laura fiacco. She quickly became my best and only friend in the school. I saw her in the hall and said hey. But she ignored me. Twice. I grew discouraged. Only later would I discover that she had a twin. We had conversation after conversation. I would stretch my back over her desk. I called her LAAAUURRRRAA in an urkle like fashion. She laughed. Maybe she thought it was cute… she never knew that I called her that because steve urkle was in love with laura. And I was in love with laura fiacco. Brandon fontinau said one day that we should date and pronounced us bf and gf. I was soooo happy! But I noticed her hugging this Asian kid, lance Springfield in the hall one day. I took it that she didn't like me. Since then, I have realized that a girl who only hugs other guys is something to cherish! They are rare at this age. I continued to admire from a distance. I wanted to go to homecoming and dance with her, but I realized that we had never hung out. What if she liked some other guy and I was embarrassed by going to dance and standing around awkwardly? I stayed home, chickening out at the last minute. The next Monday in school. I over heard her talking with her friends about getting sick from kissing some guy gordon. Who was gordon? I didn't know but I didn't care. I felt like a fool. I suddenly felt like I had way over shot my league. I had never kissed a girl. I had no business being with the prettiest girl in the school. We grew closer, as my heart grew more distant. She began asking me for advice with Gordon, her boyfriend… I died a little inside everytime. I started talking to this girl lisa around Christmas, and told laura I liked her around January. Laura became my co conspirator in my plot to win lisa. We had a conversation in bio about how we wanted to raise our kids. I was torn. I felt like laura was the one for me, but she had a boyfriend and was helping me win lisa, who didn't seem that interested either. I went with lisa, and threw myself into winning her. Laura helped me spring the trigger, a playdoh frog. That's when I knew we could never be. No woman can set up the man she wants with a friend. I was kind of sad. I dated lisa for four months, never kissing her. We broke up. During the summer I hung out with laura… I thought it was a date but I wasn't sure. I still liked her… but she saw a picture of my friend travis and said she wanted to meet him. I just want her to be happy. So I introduced them. They started dating. I went back to lisa, changed, matured. We dated again. This time we kissed. Lisa dumped me. She had never been that into me. Travis and laura broke up. But my friend steve stepped right into the gap. I watched. I dated other girls. I kept a short list of girls I thought had long term potential. Always heading the list were laura and lisa. Brooke remarked wryly to me, that even after 2 years and something like 5 girls, I still stuck with my original choices. I responded that I had always been known to be a good judge of women. And that I chose the best first, then spent a few years settling. Laura and I became ever closer. She began asking me for advice with steve. Steve asked me for advice with laura. I was torn. I wanted them to break up soo badly. But I knew that was me being selfish. So I utilized the ego mechanism of the unconscious, reaction formation. This is when you know an emotion or action is wrong, so you do the complete opposite of what you feel. I really wanted them to break up, so I worked harder than anyone to keep them together. I heard rumors of steve cheating on laura. From a supposed eye witness. But she was a known unreliable source, and laura was sooo happy. Sooo in love. I couldn't tell her. If they broke up, id beeline for laura. I refused to break them up. Days turned to weeks and weeks to months. Their ship appeared rocky but would not sink. I had a flurry of crushes on different girls. Then when I was attempting to hangout with one of them, Emily iannotti, I met lauras twin, Brenda. Well. I had met her before but never talked to her. We really bonded, and began texting the next day. We talked and then I asked for a date and then another. And before I knew it we were dating. I always felt guilty. Something in the back of my mind was like- u want laura, and Brenda is as close as you can get to laura- but I knew that was just satan trying to ruin my relationships, Brenda was completely different that laura, and I liked different things about both of them. My favorite difference about Brenda was that she was soo laid back. About everything. I am kinda laid back, but wish I was more chill. Im actually pretty intense. Brenda and I had soo much in common. The only problem? Brenda did NOT want a relationship. I am a tad possessive, and for me, the physical aspect of a relationship isn't the highlight. It is the emotional closeness. Call me a girl if you want, but its true. And yes, I loveee cuddling. But Brenda would have none of it. I wanted to be with her soo bad I agreed to her terms, I figured with time I could bring her around. She insisted that she hadn't the time for a relationship, and blamed steve for laura and her not being as close. She insisted… I don't want a Steve. I reluctantly accepted… I wanted a laura. But I really liked Brenda and we seemed perfect but she wanted more causual! More fun! And before I knew it, she had fazed all the romance out of the relationship, and we were merely friends. I was left feeling jipped, and wondering, what had I done wrong? I was confused. Should I attempt to push Brenda to take me back AND for a relationship? How could someone who appear so perfect be foiled by a lack of commitment ? I began to talk periodically with a new girl, but my heart wasn't in it. I remembered brookes words… my original choices were my best… brooke. Brooke brooke brooke. Brooke is an entirely other story. All I will say is that my lust got the best of my reason. But it is ok, nothing happened. I went back to thinking of my choices… lisa laura. Laura, lisa. Lisa and I were finally hanging out again… but I did not feel that romantic spark. It had long been extinguished. I still however, had feelings for laura. I see her face in my head all the time. On B days, I live for 3rd period, hoping to sit next to her… and all for what? Laura barely knows I exist, probably doesn't know I feel this way for her… and DEFINTLY doesn't feel this way for me. It hurts me to see her upset. When she is upset at steve, I want to show her this, and tell her. Give me a chance laura! I can give you the love you deserve… but I see how happy he makes her, and I die a little inside. And help them survive. Because I just want laura to be happy. This is what Love is. I do not think that I will never love another. In fact, if Brenda would let me, I could love her. Hopefully there is some girl out there that loves me like I love her. I am soo torn. Part of me wants to show this to laura, it thinks, I cant give up never knowing what might have been, you need to tell her! But part of me says, she doesn't like you, she is in love with steve, even if they break up, she would chose something else, don't embarrass yourself. Still a third part of me questions if this is love. I believe that I am in love, but part of me says that if love is real, then this is not it, because if true love is as powerful as people say it is. I would not sit here, and contemplate other girls, like other girls, while the girl I love lies just out of reach. I tell this side of me, that I truly love laura, that is why I let her be happy with another guy. This part of me doesn't want me to show this to laura, because it says that if I am not actually in love, I make the phrase lose meaning, and that by saying I am so passionately in love, If I claim to love some other girl, I am either a liar or a fool. I never told lisa I loved her. I never told Brenda I love her. I never told brooke I loved her. In my mind, I questioned whether I did… but I never told them. I have been saying the I love you. The persistence of my feelings for laura through all these years, and all these girls tell me that as far as my 17 years of worldy experience can say… I am in love. That is how I have flown through one thousand eight hundred words as if they were nothing. I have typed all through the night, feeling neither hunger nor sleep. All I feel is love. Love for laura. It hurts, but I know this love can never be vocalized. This is why I want laura and steve to stay together, even though everyone else wants them to break up. Also, it is selfish. I do not feel that she would chose me if she broke up with steve. I would rather play second fiddle to steve, because they will break up eventually, or they will end up married, where as if she were to date someone else, I would have to endure the honey moon phase, and probably another year before she was ready to drop him. This personal narrative, never to be read by human eyes, Is my I love you note to laura. I love you laura. Why do I love laura? Well, she is witty, engaging in conversation, smart , absolutely beautiful. For me, the thing that attracts makes laura most lovable to me, is her love for others. She has many mothering qualities, and I have never seen a girl more capable of love then laura fiacco. She is tender yet strong. She is capable of all forms of love. Motherly love, sisterly love, romantic love, sexual love, companiate love. Alas! These feelings of hers are not for me! But I have looked on longingly as she loves others, and I wish I was the target of her affections. Laura is also a control freak. She thinks too much. She gets up tight about things, she takes things too seriously. I do not love her in spite of these -flaws- , if that is what you want to call them. I love her because of them. I love Laura fiacco. Not just a few of her attributes. I do not accept her inspite of the bad. I accept the good and the bad because it is her. Laura without these traits would not be laura. This is why I love her. But she will never love me… Article Source: http://www.writearticles.org About Author / Additional Info: Additional Articles: * DATING TIP: How To Flirt And Why * How to Find the Perfect Short-Term Apartment Rental in Madrid * Is Alcohol Prohibited In Christianity | Did Jesus Drink Wine? * Shopping For My Christmas Tree * Shopping For My Christmas Tree Does this article violate or infringe on your copyright ? It is a violation of our terms for authors to submit content which they did not write and claim it as their own. 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